I’m going to let you in on a little secret. I’ve probably told you before, but I work out so I don’t gain weight. That’s the main reason behind it. Sure, I could tell you that I like the way it makes me feel (I do) and I like setting goals for myself and seeing that I can achieve them (I also do), but honestly, the main reason is because I want to be in the normal weight range.
So, when I don’t get to work out for a long time, I get antsy and irritable. Call it a disordered way of thinking if you want, but it is what it is. It’s my way of thinking. After not working out for three days last week, going to Raleigh and eating and drinking way more than I normally do, and then having some major back pain for two additional days, that made for seven days without working out.
Plus, to make matters worse, I had not one, but two doctor’s appointments where I had to step on the scale. Grr. First on Monday, I went to the Urgent Care Clinic for my back and then this morning I had a gynecologist appointment. Stepping on a doctor’s scale is never any fun, but after not working out for seven days and pigging out instead, well, you can kind of figure out how I was feeling.
Fortunately, my back feels MUCH better today! I mostly feel a little bit of stiffness, but nothing like I was feeling on Sunday and Monday, when it hurt to sit or lay down. So, I decided I needed to reunite myself with LA Fitness. I took it easy; I did 30 minutes on the elliptical and really tried to watch out for any twinges or pain in my back. I might be crazy about going to the gym, but I’m not crazy enough to re-injure myself because well, that shit hurt!
The number on the doctor’s scale wasn’t shocking. I knew it was around there. But I’d like it to be 10 lbs less. If it never is, then it never is, but I feel better about myself when I weight 10 lbs less than I do now. So, I’ve been trying to eat a little less. And by that, I really mean, I’ve been trying to curb my snacking. I get into the horrible habit of snacking while I’m making dinner and by the time dinner is ready, I’m not even that hungry because of the snacking, but I eat it anyway, so I’m basically eating the equivalent of two dinners. Tonight, I made myself not do that and cooked what one would call a normal dinner.
This was Laura’s Sesame Baked Tofu, leftover green bean fries and some random spaghetti that was in the fridge. While I was on the plane, I picked up a copy of Self Magazine. They were toting some diet and I was reading about it and what really stood out to me was that they gave the dieters a certain amount of calories and then an additional 200 for treats. But if they wanted to, they could save them. I thought this was sort of a good idea. I know that I’m going out to dinner tomorrow and Friday night. If I ate less calories tonight, I could eat more when I go out. I’m usually not very good at the whole calorie bank account thing. If I eat a piece of cake, I just go on about my day. I don’t try to make up for it. While I don’t think you always should, I think that if I’m trying to lose 10 lbs, maybe I should, at least sometimes.
Anyway, that was my very long-winded way of saying that my back feels better.